Pakistan: The Answer You (and i) Wanted

I seriously cant believe I'm already back and life is just, back.
back to home, back to bumming and chilling, back to fort bend. etc etc.
and the trip there really was like a dream - it came with amazing flight and excitement, and ended just as quickly. since I've been back I've just been replaying all that happened and could have happened...
i don't know just how many posts there will be over this trip, or if this will be the only one, i suppose we'll see as time and age progresses.
for now I'll start with the point I've received the most questions on - whatever happened to marriage??
Lol. well truth be told, I'm wondering that too.
i did indeed and surprisingly come back without even a verbal agreement of some sort, but thinking on it now i think it's for the better.
there were two guilty parties - me, and them. and both me and them said 'no'. now there were a number of 'them' but truth be told, details are just not important here. the bottom line is that i said no to a few people, and a few people said no to me. and i had my reasons, and they had theirs, so there's no hate either way and well, we're all progressing ahead in our separate yet intricately connected worlds.
if there are any more proposals from Pakistan then of course they will be considered in all seriousness. but so far as explicit searches go, we've turned towards America with full attention.
and by 'we' of course i mean YOU, as in my wonderful friends. now you have the official green-light to go find me a husband because as you can see, i have epically failed...
LoL
anyways. the whole point in looking in Pakistan was because i wanted my parents to bring home a son, not a son-in-law. to find a family that they can settle easily with and vice-versa for the in-laws *adjusting on my part is not a big deal* but alas, there was a family like that but it didn't work out. what can i say, life is life - full of twists and surprises -hey, at least its not boring, right?-
so Inshallah, I'm praying there's a family like that in America that happens to have a firm place in my life.
and it's your job to find them, because heaven knows i don't know jack-squat about playing this game on my own D<
my criteria?
well of course we've got the basic - good degree, stable job, religious awareness, social and fun personality, and a good home -by which i mean family not building-
y'all know how i am otherwise, physical appearances are not a primary focus -at all!- and everyone has their dispositions and quirks so no big deal there. and we've got the basics musts and must nots such as - he has to be Muslim, a virgin *i didn't save myself for someone who cant do the same for me ok*, no drinking or drug habits *although cigarettes i don't care about*, and no gambling.
Now! if i went into preferences...well the superficial side of me would highly prefer someone who's the eldest of his siblings and has a lot of siblings, A LOT taller than me -i don't want my poor children to be midgets D=- with green eyes, a black southern momma *not ghetto - there is a difference!-, and can speak another language besides English...
(you know, the usual specifics xD)
Lol -sigh- why do i feel as if my shot and my target are in completely different dimensions?
lol again.
anyhow, I'm hopeful. Allah has taken care of me so far and I have full faith he wont drop me just yet. just gotta take life in a stride and a smile, and we'll just see where we end up

on and ending positive note: my new clothes are so frikin fabulous!